Want a good laugh?

Dennis has taught Kaiden what a wedgey is!! But, not exactly in the most discrete approach. We were at Crystal's house picking up our old computer and I was wearing my comfy gym pants. Dennis and the boys were in the car as I was talking to her on the porch. All of the sudden Kaiden rolled down the window and yelled: "Mommy, is your butt hungry?" I bout pee'd my pants laughing!!!

Valentines Day!

Dennis was such a Romantic yesterday!! He had arranged for a limo to pick us up at home and his mom watched the boys for us. We went to dinner at Light House Sound, which is right on the bay and he had the florist come in and set the table up for use and his mom dropped off my gift! We were right next to the fireplace and were LITERALLY the only table there for the entire night! There was a beautiful bouquet of baby roses and my fav flower!!! Star gazer lilies!! SO BEAUTIFUL! And rose pedals all over the table! And he got me this amazing ring! It's a pearl with diamond chips in a swirl on the sides. When we got my pearl necklace and earrings last mothers day, this was the ring I wanted, but it was too much at the time. He didn't even remember that's the one I wanted!! He said that he saw it amongst the others and knew it was me! We had an amazing evening and he was so sweet! The food was delicious and fancy and we got to spend 3 hours alone at dinner together, just enjoying eachothers company! That NEVER HAPPENS! I just wish I had brought my fancy camera with cuz the view was gorgeous and the sunset was amazing!

Nursing

So, as we go along our schoolin, we get these outrotations and different experiences. We go to different areas of specialty. Today, I went to Hospice care. Hospice is essentially the area of care for those who have a terminal illness, with no cure, and who are at the end of their lives. The hospice area I was in, is where there are worsening of conditions that come with end of life that can no longer be controlled at home. These are generally agitation, breathing issues, and especially pain. Today I came to the realization that I am not cut out for Hospice care, palliative care, or those areas that handle making the end easier. My heart is far too big to handle that emotional drain everyday. I started crying with the breaking of news to a family member that the end was there. I suppose I personalize it. I kept thinking about being with my grandma LaCrosse when she was at the end of her life. Seeing the periods of halting breathing altogether at the very end. The unknowing of when it was actually going to get there, but knowing it was just around the corner. Then I missed my grandfather's end. One of the people who were closest to me in the world. Why? $$$$ People say that Money does not make happiness, but without it you sure can be miserable! I just saw that patient and family together, knowing the end was coming and soon, feeling horrible and wondering what my grandfather went through. I just couldn't do it. I know that there is an end of life. I know that it has to happen and it will to the young, old, and young adults, but to deal with it every single day, just waiting for it to come, would be too much for me. I am pretty sure I'm going to do ER and I know eventually a Family Nurse Practitioner. But being able to cancel out what I don't want to do is a good thing. On my way to finishing!