4 Years ago....

Wednesday, me and Denny got married in grand 'Ole Lawton, OK!! We had just had our 1st little guy Kaiden and my mom and Dad came down to witness the event! We got married in the court house and the moment we stepped out of the doors, the church bells next door began ringing! To me it was God's sign of approval and celebration for us! Then we went to the Holy City and got a brick on their sidewalk engraved with our names and wedding date! Now we're here in Grand 'Ole Willards, MD and still going strong! We have 2 amazing little men Kaiden and Kalan, and Dennis has got his foot in the door at the post office and I have 1 year left till I'm officially a nurse! We are amazingly blessed everyday by the good Lord above! We have our hard times, but it's God who gets us through everyday! We have amazing friends and family and we love you all!!

We celebrated by going out Friday after I got out of school. We went to Ocean City and watch the 3rd Fast and Furious, which was really good! And then we ate suishi for our first "official" time! It was really good! Then we went and played miniature golf and technically Dennis won, but we bet it all on the last hole and I won!!! WOOT WOOT! LOL! And then we went to the boardwalk and walked to the end of the pier, admired the ocean view! And then we walked the boardwalk, got some goodies, and just spent time together! It was great! It's really nice to take time for just the two of us occasionally! I wish I would have taken pics, but eh! Oh Well!

MY LITTLE MAN IS 2!!!!

MMM Cake!

Lawnmower from Mee-Maw

Crazy Boys

Tricycle from Mommy, Daddy, and Kaiden and brother is helping teach Kalan!

Mommy, Daddy, and Kaiden got Kalan an older D.S. so he can play like brother!

More Presents

Today my little man turned 2! And no, it's still not an April Fools Joke!!! I can't believe this will be my last 2nd birthday! And how much he's grown. It just doesn't seem like he's 2 already!! But we went to Coins with Mee-Maw and Aunty Crystal for Dinner, opened presents, ate some cake, and came home to watch his new movie spiderman 2! I still can't believe it! I'm gettin old ya'll!

4 YEARS ALREADY??!!

HORRRRRRRIBLE PICS OF MOMMY! And Kaiden wouldn't smile!

So today my little monster turned 4!! I can't believe it's been that long, just doesn't seem real. I was just reading his baby book and laughing because I said our plans for the future were to have a baby sister for him! LOL! NEGATIVE ON THAT ONE! We changed our minds shortly after becoming parents! LOL! And funny cuz I was reading about how effaced I was, dilated, and position of Kaiden ( -3) and now I know what all the biz means! But I really can't believe it. I was still in friggin labor right now! He didn't come till 1145pm! So, still got almost 2 hours to go!

Today Kaiden took cupcakes to school and turned everyone blue from the icing! LOL! They made him a special hat and a pin that said It's my Birthday, then his name! Then Kalan and I met daddy and Kaiden at Miss Emily's and sang him happy b-day, he blew out the candle and then opened his 1 present for today. It was spongebob connect 4! And then Sunday we are meeting family at CoCo's! He's excited! Still can't believe 4 YEARS!!! INSANE!!

SNOW DAY!!!

WE HAD A SNOW DAY ON MONDAY!! YIPPEE! It was GREAT! Cuz Mommy didn't have school and daddy was off of work! So we got to hang out all day together! Daddy was a bum and just opted to take the pics while we played in the snow! Kalan's snow suit was Kaiden's when he was 2!!! SO CUTE!! Reminds me of Christmas story! It only lasted one day for mommy, but Kaiden had a snow day from Preschool on Tuesday and a delay today, which meant no school! AND GUESS WHAT TOMORROW IS??? MY LITTLE MONSTER IS TURNING 4!!!!!!! He's gettin too big! To think, I was in Labor right now...starting to feel the burn!

Want a good laugh?

Dennis has taught Kaiden what a wedgey is!! But, not exactly in the most discrete approach. We were at Crystal's house picking up our old computer and I was wearing my comfy gym pants. Dennis and the boys were in the car as I was talking to her on the porch. All of the sudden Kaiden rolled down the window and yelled: "Mommy, is your butt hungry?" I bout pee'd my pants laughing!!!

Valentines Day!

Dennis was such a Romantic yesterday!! He had arranged for a limo to pick us up at home and his mom watched the boys for us. We went to dinner at Light House Sound, which is right on the bay and he had the florist come in and set the table up for use and his mom dropped off my gift! We were right next to the fireplace and were LITERALLY the only table there for the entire night! There was a beautiful bouquet of baby roses and my fav flower!!! Star gazer lilies!! SO BEAUTIFUL! And rose pedals all over the table! And he got me this amazing ring! It's a pearl with diamond chips in a swirl on the sides. When we got my pearl necklace and earrings last mothers day, this was the ring I wanted, but it was too much at the time. He didn't even remember that's the one I wanted!! He said that he saw it amongst the others and knew it was me! We had an amazing evening and he was so sweet! The food was delicious and fancy and we got to spend 3 hours alone at dinner together, just enjoying eachothers company! That NEVER HAPPENS! I just wish I had brought my fancy camera with cuz the view was gorgeous and the sunset was amazing!

Nursing

So, as we go along our schoolin, we get these outrotations and different experiences. We go to different areas of specialty. Today, I went to Hospice care. Hospice is essentially the area of care for those who have a terminal illness, with no cure, and who are at the end of their lives. The hospice area I was in, is where there are worsening of conditions that come with end of life that can no longer be controlled at home. These are generally agitation, breathing issues, and especially pain. Today I came to the realization that I am not cut out for Hospice care, palliative care, or those areas that handle making the end easier. My heart is far too big to handle that emotional drain everyday. I started crying with the breaking of news to a family member that the end was there. I suppose I personalize it. I kept thinking about being with my grandma LaCrosse when she was at the end of her life. Seeing the periods of halting breathing altogether at the very end. The unknowing of when it was actually going to get there, but knowing it was just around the corner. Then I missed my grandfather's end. One of the people who were closest to me in the world. Why? $$$$ People say that Money does not make happiness, but without it you sure can be miserable! I just saw that patient and family together, knowing the end was coming and soon, feeling horrible and wondering what my grandfather went through. I just couldn't do it. I know that there is an end of life. I know that it has to happen and it will to the young, old, and young adults, but to deal with it every single day, just waiting for it to come, would be too much for me. I am pretty sure I'm going to do ER and I know eventually a Family Nurse Practitioner. But being able to cancel out what I don't want to do is a good thing. On my way to finishing!