4 YEARS ALREADY??!!

HORRRRRRRIBLE PICS OF MOMMY! And Kaiden wouldn't smile!

So today my little monster turned 4!! I can't believe it's been that long, just doesn't seem real. I was just reading his baby book and laughing because I said our plans for the future were to have a baby sister for him! LOL! NEGATIVE ON THAT ONE! We changed our minds shortly after becoming parents! LOL! And funny cuz I was reading about how effaced I was, dilated, and position of Kaiden ( -3) and now I know what all the biz means! But I really can't believe it. I was still in friggin labor right now! He didn't come till 1145pm! So, still got almost 2 hours to go!

Today Kaiden took cupcakes to school and turned everyone blue from the icing! LOL! They made him a special hat and a pin that said It's my Birthday, then his name! Then Kalan and I met daddy and Kaiden at Miss Emily's and sang him happy b-day, he blew out the candle and then opened his 1 present for today. It was spongebob connect 4! And then Sunday we are meeting family at CoCo's! He's excited! Still can't believe 4 YEARS!!! INSANE!!

SNOW DAY!!!

WE HAD A SNOW DAY ON MONDAY!! YIPPEE! It was GREAT! Cuz Mommy didn't have school and daddy was off of work! So we got to hang out all day together! Daddy was a bum and just opted to take the pics while we played in the snow! Kalan's snow suit was Kaiden's when he was 2!!! SO CUTE!! Reminds me of Christmas story! It only lasted one day for mommy, but Kaiden had a snow day from Preschool on Tuesday and a delay today, which meant no school! AND GUESS WHAT TOMORROW IS??? MY LITTLE MONSTER IS TURNING 4!!!!!!! He's gettin too big! To think, I was in Labor right now...starting to feel the burn!

Want a good laugh?

Dennis has taught Kaiden what a wedgey is!! But, not exactly in the most discrete approach. We were at Crystal's house picking up our old computer and I was wearing my comfy gym pants. Dennis and the boys were in the car as I was talking to her on the porch. All of the sudden Kaiden rolled down the window and yelled: "Mommy, is your butt hungry?" I bout pee'd my pants laughing!!!

Valentines Day!

Dennis was such a Romantic yesterday!! He had arranged for a limo to pick us up at home and his mom watched the boys for us. We went to dinner at Light House Sound, which is right on the bay and he had the florist come in and set the table up for use and his mom dropped off my gift! We were right next to the fireplace and were LITERALLY the only table there for the entire night! There was a beautiful bouquet of baby roses and my fav flower!!! Star gazer lilies!! SO BEAUTIFUL! And rose pedals all over the table! And he got me this amazing ring! It's a pearl with diamond chips in a swirl on the sides. When we got my pearl necklace and earrings last mothers day, this was the ring I wanted, but it was too much at the time. He didn't even remember that's the one I wanted!! He said that he saw it amongst the others and knew it was me! We had an amazing evening and he was so sweet! The food was delicious and fancy and we got to spend 3 hours alone at dinner together, just enjoying eachothers company! That NEVER HAPPENS! I just wish I had brought my fancy camera with cuz the view was gorgeous and the sunset was amazing!

Nursing

So, as we go along our schoolin, we get these outrotations and different experiences. We go to different areas of specialty. Today, I went to Hospice care. Hospice is essentially the area of care for those who have a terminal illness, with no cure, and who are at the end of their lives. The hospice area I was in, is where there are worsening of conditions that come with end of life that can no longer be controlled at home. These are generally agitation, breathing issues, and especially pain. Today I came to the realization that I am not cut out for Hospice care, palliative care, or those areas that handle making the end easier. My heart is far too big to handle that emotional drain everyday. I started crying with the breaking of news to a family member that the end was there. I suppose I personalize it. I kept thinking about being with my grandma LaCrosse when she was at the end of her life. Seeing the periods of halting breathing altogether at the very end. The unknowing of when it was actually going to get there, but knowing it was just around the corner. Then I missed my grandfather's end. One of the people who were closest to me in the world. Why? $$$$ People say that Money does not make happiness, but without it you sure can be miserable! I just saw that patient and family together, knowing the end was coming and soon, feeling horrible and wondering what my grandfather went through. I just couldn't do it. I know that there is an end of life. I know that it has to happen and it will to the young, old, and young adults, but to deal with it every single day, just waiting for it to come, would be too much for me. I am pretty sure I'm going to do ER and I know eventually a Family Nurse Practitioner. But being able to cancel out what I don't want to do is a good thing. On my way to finishing!

Back to School... ICK!

So, I'm back to school on Monday! Not lookin forward to it. I want it all over with soon!! I just have NO LIFE when I'm in school and get no time to even breathe. This semester is ton's worse with 2 clinicals and 2 patients per day. The patient thing isn't bad, it's just the careplans! But tonight we are going to the rodeo with our friend Kat and her son JJ, so that will be our last family adventure for a bit! Wish us luck!

HELLO THERE!

WELL WELL WELL! It's been a bit since I've posted, yet again, so this will be a lot to take in! LOL! I started my break on the 19th of December and it's been constant going ever since! So many things to do that you can't when your in SLAVERY!! HEHE! So Christmas was great! The boys got everything they wanted and more and had a blast. Dennis had saved up all summer and got me this amazing camera that I've been dying for!! And he bought an IPOD from me to him LOL! My MIL even got me some Uggs!!! WOW! We got to go to Aunt Crystals and hang out for the whole day! And a few days before we got to have a sleep over there. The boys had so much fun! Kalan even had his first PeePee in the pody! He still doesn't quite know the urge feeling yet, but he LOVES to go and sit on his pody, so once he knows when he needs to go, he's gonna be easy!! Then the boys and I were lucky enough to be able fly back home to Claremore, Oklahoma!! We surprised my family and had a relatively good trip. My relationship with my mother however was not improved..perhaps worsened, but that was kind of expected. We did have so much fun with my dad and the farm! Gosh I miss it so much. Kaiden and Kalan LOVED the tractor and the cows. They helped feed just about everyday. Kaiden drove the tractor with PaPa and Kalan drove the truck with Trish! We got to see pretty much everyone and Aunty Donder and Uncle Ronnie even took the boys to the store and let them pick out their own gifts! They loved that!! I think the highlight was when we went to my dad's store to see him and Kaiden was so excited that PaPa told everyone he was his grandson and that he drives the tractor! LOL! I really did have so much fun! I miss being home a lot, so it was great to be able to visit and get a fix before I started school again! Especially since my friend Amanda was awesome and got her man's limo for us for the night!! That was great! We'll be visiting again in June or July (I forget) when my cousin Steven is getting married. It won't be nearly as long, prolly only a couple of days, but I'm excited! Here's some pics of the events! There are so many and I posted them all on facebook and myspace! I just can't figure out how to get the order right on her! LOL!


Jayden, Rylee, Daniel, Maeghyn, Hunter, Kaiden, and Kalan at my dad's

Kaiden and Kalan feeding the cows

Landing in Tulsa!

Kalan's 1st Pee-Pee in the Pody!

I SEE YOU! My new Camera!!